I Don’t Want To Do This (Part One)

It was my bright idea to put this challenge on The List II.

And from that point, I knew what I wanted to fast from.

But here’s the thing… fasting is not fun.  To me, fasting involves sacrifice and at least a little discomfort (physical or otherwise).  If you give up something that’s easy to give up, well, yes, it’s technically “fasting,” but really, you’re missing the point.

I was going to stop eating fast food and soda pop for the entirely of The List II.  When that failed, I thought I’d at least do the January portion.  That also didn’t work, so I’m hoping some accountability (going public with my intent and whatnot) will help me with this, make it more difficult for me to give up.  For the next week, Saturday to Friday, I will abstain from easting fast food or drinking soda pop.

And I know, to some of you, this seems ridiculous, because you would never even think of touching either of these, but that doesn’t make it any less difficult for me.  These are my alcohol, my heroin, my crack cocaine.  The things I use to self-medicate and self-sabbotage.  For the past 4 months of trying to do this, I haven’t been able to go more than 1 day without one of these; the idea of even trying for a week scares me… I don’t like failure.

Jennifer